I sow the seeds...
I water the shrub..
I wait for you, oh sun..
Rise and make your magnanimity feel..

I aspire, I work..
And sacrifices I make
I  read, learn, inspire
I give what it shall take...


I smile, I love, I care..
And wait I do
for you ain't here..
I dream, believe ,wish..
Sometimes Stop and stare..


I wait for you, my destiny to unveil..
I wait for you, my life..
your mysteries you reveal..



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Those Small Little Things in Life...

Hello Friends... :)

Here comes a post after a long long time.. I had been away, coz I was too busy..-> No, That's a lie..

I had been away coz I got better things to do -> A terrible one!

To tell you the truth, I have been away coz I forgot...

Same way as I forgot to do almost all those things that used to make me feel happy, fulfilled....

Like so many others, I too got caught in the mundane trap of ROUTINE..

Home to office, Office to home, eating out at weekends, browsing facebook or twitter for hours mindlessly (coz the brain had almost stopped telling me what I really wanted to do... )... Almost like a zombie...better still, a well programmed Robot....

Not much has changed even now... When I read my old posts, I can't believe it is I who wrote them.. such enthusiasm... so much vigor...energy...excitement....

But anyway, this post is not my place to sulk... this post is an attempt to help so many other Robots who've died bit by bit while chasing those unrealistic deadlines.....



Here are some things you can do to get back to your real self:

1. Talk to yourself before you go to sleep every day
It can be anything, I started off by telling myself, 5 things I was grateful for and 5 things I wanted to improve upon every day...This exercise somehow made me realize what really matters to me. Almost intuitively, I started doing more of the stuff I thought would make me grateful that night...and although I never believed it completely when I read it in somewhere long back, that if you keep thinking of something you wanna do, you will eventually end up working towards it.. And tada! it does work ! :)

2. Stop mindlessly browsing Social Networking Sites
Ok, I'm not saying," Go ahead and deactivate that stupid account which does more harm than good!" We all need our fair share of "news"..don't we? But do not make this an addiction. And yes, it is an addiction if the first thing you open on starting a browser is your facebook! Think about it... is it really something you wanna do? Or is it just that you are too lazy to think of doing something else?

3. Find Time for any one of your hobbies, daily!
The good news is, 5 minutes is good enough!! :)
It is good enough to keep you alive, happy n kickin'... I am already feeling so good right now even though I am writing gibberish. Your hobbies give you meaning.. they bring out the child in you... Pick up those old paint brushes..don't let them bite dust....go on that trip you had planned since college but never had the money...or simply
go out n play... coz you deserve much more than that closed cubicle, that stupid laptop screen and that irritating alarm clock every morning!!

P.S. The author has taken to writing after a long long time and is currently feeling funny calling herself an author. Bear with her! ;)

P.P.S. If you know more ways to reinvent life... please share here.. :)

A Passing thought....

hi frens,
well...ryt now i m lying down on my bed after a tiring bhangra practice session and thinking...i know, this isn't a big deal..i mean me thinking,those of u who know me know how much i love fantasizing,dreaming and thinking. But today is different (or maybe thats what i feel)..i was wondering about the people around us..U know I've always believed in the fact that everyone around us is good.What i mean is,its circumstances who are wrong,not people. For instance,think,how many of us can actually stand up and say,yes,i am bad at heart.I hurt people intentionally or maybe yes,I am corrupt by choice...
Such statements are seldom heard.Atleast I have never heard them in the 19 years of my life.And I m sure not many of us have.That means each of us can justify to ourselves that somewhere down the line whatever we are doing,it is because of a reason.Then why are some of us proved wrong in front of others?? Why is something white and the other black??
Is it because of lack of communication?? yes,maybe it is.....most of the time. coz things seems wrong because people do not understand each other's points.I think trying to get into each other's shoes will help. Can't we for some time consider what the other person must be feeling like at the moment..Can't we forget ourselves for some time.................
Even if we do all this,there will be times when we would be unable to help even if we understand things around us..because of loadsa complicated situations..that is when we need to give it up to the higher power...and of course have faith!!!!:)

hi readers,

Sometimes I wonder who am i??

i mean am i really doing justice to myself??

i get the "Mai aisa kyu hu" type of feeling.The difference of course being that I am not Hrithik Roshan and am definitely not being paid for dancing wierdly on this track.Enough,(why do i get carried away when i talk of hrithik) anyway,what i mean to say is i am SO CONFUSED.

Never ever do i feel like taking the initiative for anything.I mean come to think of it,a decision as big as selecting a stream for myself also was not my own.Landed up in MNNIT,electronics engineer somehow.Just because all my cousins were into engineering and coachings were the coolest thing to do in 11th-12th for even the slightly 'padhaku' type kids.But somehow that does'nt satisfy me.
i mean, i know i should be out there somewhere(i don't know),doing something else but...i m here.(lying down on my bed and writing this post!!!!)
i always get a feeling...something is missing..something else has to be done by me which i am not doing..as if a higher power is trying to show me,pull me towards it but i am just not reading the signs right....
its so disgusting and trapping.does dis happen wid u all 2?? m i thinking a lot????
should i let life continue dis way(which isn't dat bad,u knw!!),if not then what should i do???

Guess someday the answers are going to come to me..till den..waiting waiting waiting..

hey friends..

bak again n dis tym definitely nt depressed as usual..some change..well yeah..

really wanted 2 talk bout 'time'...All of us at some stage of tym have realized the importance of time or rather d lack of it..bt d question is do v really need 2 blame everything on tym..

xams ke liye nai padha..tym nahi tha yaar...

school friend in city..bt dint go 2 meet dem...y?? tym nahi tha yaar...

someday v really might need 2 hear what our conscience tells us 4 a change n den v wil 4get blaming time...a very li'l effort is required in most cases..it can b in d form of determination,acceptance,understanding or simply listening 2 what ur heart has 2 say wid closed eyes..believe me people..even u knw dis somewhere deep inside u dat it wasnt time who was at fault most of the time...

in fact i feel its all about 'timing time'...but dat wud happen only when d basic understanding grows..in my case,i dnt think i cn ever understand d ryt time 4 things 2 happen...ryt time 4 trying 2 make things happen...den how do i xplain my logic...d best part is smtyms time has its own timing..u dnt really need to do anything..u dont need 2 think...dats what is "going wid da flow of things"...and believe me dis definitely works...coz ders smthng called faith..in god..in ur destiny and in urself...
so frens..lets get things done 4 ourselves or simply wait 4 dem 2 happen..and who knows the timing of time might surprise u as well...like it does 2 me...most of the time.......:)

"when it rains...

hey readers,

ever noticed rains??i mean obviously everybody has experienced dem...but ever noticed??

wen a drop of rain falls over d face...how 2 fresh nd how energizing it is....nd wen u try 2 rub it off ur face,d freshness dznt end...it enters u nd replenishes ur soul...well...mayb i m being 2 poetic but dats wat i feel....can relationships be like dis??nd here m including all relationships:friendship,affection,respect and love.......

can der b 1 person (like d rains).....who can enrich d soul??cn der b a perfect relationship?? i hate 2 admit this.....but i have never experienced 1...nd so i doubt its existance!! maybe i m asking 4 2 much...being a typical piscean...in my dream world but i love 2 dream it dis way....nd i love rains!!!

hi again.......
dese days d in thing is.......colleges,admissions etc.etc....
so lets talk boout dat......
how many of us actually made it 2 iit??or b8r still, y do ppl scare d hell out of us if v dnt get in2 iit......
listen man,i kno iit is d best insti of d nation...nd evn i wud have luvd 2 b a part of it..bt ders smthng called destiny...inspite of my best efforts i managed air 7089....zit actually my fault??ok..agreed mayb i dint work dat hard bt d ppl who r cursing me since d results came out havent wrkd haf as hard as i did....so who r they 2 blame me..???
it hurts,it hurts a lot bt hell!!!i m takin it in my stride..i neva complained...
bt y wud ppl understand...after all everybdy has d right 2 speak nd ppl exercise it well enuf!!!

neway.........whateva ne1 says...
frm my side herez a cheers 2 all who ,inspite of der best efforts cudnt get in2 iit...v gotta make a fresh start guys....common v hav it in us...dat is y god is testing us..............................